Since we last talked:
my new job is intense (and awesome)
we might be moving
might be contemplating some other really big changes too
I still drink too much (coffee, soda, whiskey - depends on the time of day)
my husband and I are really trying to find a way to purposefully connect
my Luke has been withdrawn from kindergarten
I am on a rampage with the Catholic school
he was doing wrestling and loving it and loving the people
he broke his collar bone and now wrestling is done for the season
he was sooo brave and so interested in the x-rays and the process
he is becoming very philosophical
Dottie has become emotionally overwrought about 15 times a day every day
she still loves sequins
she still sparkles (when she is not freaking out about something)
she is the only one in my house that doesn't hate winter at this point
she is my true challenge, i find it hard to connect with her sometimes
she is so smart, it has me pulling my hair out
Charlie is pretty much sleeping (!!!) through the night (only took 2 years)
he is starting the speech therapy journey, which should make me happy because
its helping him, but kinda makes me sad
he worships the ground his brother walks on
he turns two and for the first time ever, we are not having a birthday party,
he just hates having people at our house and he is sooooo much more shy than the others
he loves to dance and he still hates to snuggle
he is also starting to hit which is very uncool
Mike. he is good. generous. serious. committed.
he makes me laugh
he wants to make things easier/better/more awesome
he never laughs at my crazy ideas
he is tired and working very hard.
he is so very cute.
me? I think I put too much pressure on most situations.
I am still exacting, and want others to be exacting MY WAY
I am trying to let go of that
I am working on finding a better center -
what really gives me support, what really energizes me?
where are the emotional vampires and how do i avoid them?
why do I own so many pairs of blue jeans?
why don't I own more quality black shoes?
mostly I am good. I am trying not to be too self harsh - the world has enough harsh in it.