I Couldn't Have Known

Nine years ago today, I couldn't have known what my future would hold.  

I couldn't know that job loss, political intrigue, miscarriage, travel, and three kids in four years would be the cornerstones of my life.  

I couldn't know that the boy who lived in the dorm room next to mine my freshman year of college would change.  

I couldn't know that how I felt about him could change.  

I did know a few things though.

I knew that I was imperfect.  And that he loved me anyway.  And that he was imperfect, and that was part of what I loved about him.  

I knew he would be an amazing partner.  That he would be fierce and loyal and steady.  That he would make me laugh.  That he wasn't afraid if I cried.  That he prayed and would hold my hand.  

I couldn't have known that my life would be built around him and that it would never be the same for no reason I could see on that beautiful 70 degree day, at my parents church surrounded by all the people who loved us.  

Loved him then.  Would die for him now.  

xoxox.